Hmmm. Everytime I mistakenly doing my bad habit, I feel really down with myself. All the things I wanna do on that day seems failed. Yes, everytime I will feel like that. Then I start thinking about what if someone I really love, someone who always sees the good side of me, know about my bad habit which is actually out of their brain. It's freaking shame on me. I know. I'm sorry that I'm not that strong. But I know being 'not that strong' is not the excuse for me to feel comfortable with that. And I also know I cant let it destroy my life since day to day I will have a lot more commitments. I have to be the best version of myself. I don't want this bad side of me makes my relationship with others become worst too. I just can't imagine it. Im sorry.. 😔
I hope I can survive this. I really hope for that. I really hope Allah guide me all the way. Only him can help me out of this darkness. Yes. I only need Him. Allah..